Upset!

This isn't a happy post.  I'm pretty angry.  Confused too.  You would think that with all my knowledge and faith in the Plan of Salvation that I would be able to understand death.  I hate it.  Sure, for old people I can handle it, but not for the rest of us.  I don't know if it is because of social networking and people talking about their grief that I'm maybe more aware, or if more people are actually passing away these days.  Gene and I went to 5 funerals last year.  One so far this year.  My Uncle Dan, who was really the only uncle on my dad's side that I know is passing away from bladder cancer.  My next door neighbor, who is in her young 30's has stage 4 cancer and her chemo isn't working.  I'm losing my friends.  My friends are losing parents.  I lost my sweet dog, Lucy, 3 1/2 weeks ago.  I just can't take it.  I'm wondering what is happening on the other side.  What does Heavenly Father have planned?  Why is he building his army so rapidly?  Who is next?  What is going to happen?  This makes me want to keep my family home and never leave the house.  My heart is so broken for everyone right now.  It's no way to live, being sad about something you can't control.  My dad was telling me yesterday, as we were talking about his brother, that this is part of life.  There is a time to mourn.  But we just have to live happily until it is our time to go.  I try not to be angry, but I am.  I wish people could just stay longer.  I'm tired of people being taken too early.


UPDATE:  Uncle Dan passed away today June 27, 2013 around 2:00PM.  He was 62.